Back to how to make this a film

I ran into a friend the other day and I told him about how i was working on this film. For years now i have had a pretty clear sense of the first 20 minutes- so it’s kind of easy for me to kick off- but then it spirals into the unknown…

he quickly said “keep it simple”. I agree that it needs to be simple- but the issue is complex- and my feelings and thoughts are pretty explosive at this point so i am going to just keep on putting it down on paper- logging footage and planning.

This is going to be a multi year process but right now I feel like I am that guy who is supposed to set the pace for a race (the rabbit) - and I’m going a little too fast- there’s way too much coming out- and not enough time to make sense of it.

Over the last few years I have had some periodic problems with sciatica- pain in my leg and back- at times it’s been pretty severe- both times it’s gotten really severe i had a daughter that was about 1.5 yrs. old- and both times it stuck around for a little under a year. I KNOW that the pain is related to stress - and believe very firmly in the practice of Dr Sarno (healing back pain) - another doc we are trying to find a way to make- last October i had been suffering for a long time and I finally went to go see an acupuncturist at a store front in the E Village- I did this in the same week that i started to go to a pool. After 5 sessions in 7 days I was pretty much pain free for the first time in nearly a year. Since then I have been pretty regular about going to the pool and riding my bike. For me the pool has been only partly about exercise- it’s more about meditating. I try to use that time to clear my head- I don’t have the patience for yoga (I would like to gain that patience) so in the meantime i kind of treat the swimming as if it were yoga- and do it very mindfully-

i also use this time to think about the projects i am working on - i’ve been flooded with thoughts for this film/blog/book and i am struggling to get them all down - so that i can make use of them- and I’m doing it imperfectly in this bloggy way- because I’ve found that it’s helped me to stay focused- it’s helped me to continue to be goal oriented.

i tend to put off a lot of things because i can’t complete them properly- or i psych myself out before i even start- i think - i won’t get that grant so why bother- etc
with this project i’ve decided to simply move forward at any cost- and so far it’s really helped me blast ahead- so again - forgive the bad grammar- the lost structures- this is all brainstorm so please continue to read at your own risk of….. boredom insanity etc.